Day 53

Hmmm, workouts have been going better since Tuesday. Now that I kind of expect a higher level of difficulty (not that it wasn't plenty hard before!), I 'm less taken aback by the increasing amount of time I devote to the workout.

I was inspired by Ren's "confession" blog of sorts where he admitted what he cheats on in terms of PCP. I was going to mention today's incident anyways, but that was a good prompter as well.

So, today after I finished lunch, I had the biggest hankering for something sweet. Not fruit, not yogurt, not sugar free gum, only chocolate-y goodness would do. And that would be the cake that's been sitting out for almost a week now. I figured I would have one bite, it would taste old, and that would be that. Well, I must say, it was better than I ever imagined. The frosting was still perfect, the cake the perfect moist consistency and I had 3 more bites. And then...I stopped. Yes, it occurred to me that I could take a whole piece (or more) and make it my indulgence, but the whole point of an indulgence is to do it on your terms, not from giving in to a sweet tooth attack.

While this could be looked at as a weak point where I fell off the diet (which I am aware it was), I prefer to see it as a sign of progress. In a way I think it's more realistic to have a taste of those tantalizing foods every once in awhile rather than act like they don't exist. It's good for me to practice having only a few bites, and then stopping, rather than stuffing my face. That has been where I always fail in the past. So instead of freaking out about what those 4 bites of chocolate cake are going to do to my PCP progress, I'm going to recognize that this was a rare occurrence and celebrate the fact that I didn't go into my usual chocolate frenzy!! I hope this doesn't downgrade me from a blackbelt!

In other news, I've started focusing on my yoga practice again. Last week, I did not attend a single class (which is rare) and so this week I have made it a point to go. I've been 3 times already and really appreciate what it does for my body and mind. I'm really looking forward to this summer when I can go to the yoga studio I attended over Spring Break.

I realized the other day that in my halfway-point goal reflection blog, I forgot to mention one very important goal I made. That was to have a regular meditation practice. Of course, it's been the hardest one to keep. But I've really focused on it the past few days, and am working on making it a daily thing.