Day 64

So today, right before an exam, I found out something that could very well change my immediate future plans. I found out that UVA will give me a pretty significant scholarship to go in 2011, which would require deferring for a year. They just don't have the money to offer me a scholarship this year. At first, I was like no way. I already have my roommates and am about to sign a lease on an apartment, but then I thought about it more. Deferring would allow me time to regroup, get a job, earn some money so I can take out even less loans, and I could hang out with friends sticking around in Charleston. But at the same time, I would have to live at home (well I could find an apartment but that seems silly when I'm trying to save money) and I might feel a little aimless. So I haven't made a decision by any means, but I do need to decide in a few days so I can tell my roommates, etc. This is one of those curveball situations that requires a total realigning of your mind. Basically what I thought was a guaranteed future might not be the reality. So it definitely takes a readjustment of thinking. I meditated about it after my exam, trying to breathe in possibility and breathe out stress.

In PCP world, I don't want to speak too soon, but I think today's workout might have taken me out of the valley. I have never enjoyed a workout so much. It was definitely hard and required a lot of effort, but I felt great and rejuvenated when it was over. I was inspired by Ren's post about not letting up during these last 26 days. I'm so pleased with my results, but I know I'm not at my peak condition...yet.

Two more exams tomorrow and then freedom!